~And So the StoRy BeGiNs~

~split personality~

2005-11-18T00:44:00.000-08:00

sometimes its so hard to express feelings to people... being a human that is successful is such a difficult thing to do... being successful is one thing... but y do we need to be successful? haih~ someday ill die anyway...wonder2

being someone skilled is not an easy task... sometimes they help, sometimes not~ but to everyone nobody teaches somebody everything~ so wats the use... others make money using skill, others be proud of what they have.. but rarely everyone teaches a skill that they have with full spirit~ i know its hard to giv something that u hav learnt for years for us 5 mins to someone, each of us has a something special to keep and preserve.. o well~ i have a skill too, but sometimes i often wonder, y im so stupid in using such skills... sometimes i wished that i was blind... wonder how things look like, wonder what is a tv... wonder about everything.... and the best part of it... i was never able to indulge in this world thats cracking apart... being blind is something i would wish for if i knew that i was some sort of useless being someday... but sometimes the future cant be predicted so easily.... thinkin of myself in a house...havin treasures that i collected from all my hardwork... its all dreams... dreams..... heh~

people often tell me... believe in your dreams... yeah i believe... but dreams are still dreams... they cant pop out and become something thats named the reality~ sometimes i wanna feel something different from my life ritenow... i wanna experience the life of a pauper... striving so hard to succeed... infact all the experts today are those who came from villages... all in a sense of kampung boy... my dad took years to succeed.... now im jus sittin here typing around in all the luxuries......typing this makes me shed a tear...but this is my feelings... i wanna be poor.... having wild dreams as a kampung boy...and finally achieving it with all my effort... believing in god as time goes by... i wanna feel everything...

experiencing the life of a poor family is something people usually dont dream of... but because of being poor... things usually turn out well.... o well gotta shove all my feelings aside for now...

written by~

the dazzled and confused

~future~

2005-10-24T20:03:00.000-07:00

aku terpk memacam..camne nak invest... camne nak jadik org kaye...

fuhh...alangkah sronoknye kalo aku nih org kaye... aku bole bli sume mende aku nak~

tp org kate...the bigger u r the more responsibilities u have...ape yg besnye jadik org kaye...

kawan pon kekadang cucuk blakang, org nak rompak harte sumer...haih~

knape lah aku jadik camni....

jadik tokey mangkuk jamban lagi bes, atleast low profile sket... kaye ngan mangkuk jamban~

hohohoho

~waaa korang sumer salah paham~

2005-10-24T08:26:00.000-07:00

OK le sorry ler tersilap plak kat situ... ORG JAMBU TAK SMESTINYE GAY~ tp mangse gay ade la kot...

kpd yg terase aku mintak maap~ TP

VINCE TETAP JAMBU!

so------ adekah dier gay?

jom kite carik jawapannye...~!!!

~pengakuan iklas cik mia~

2005-10-23T09:35:00.000-07:00

akhirnye die mengaku jugak...
puas aku ckp kat dier yg vince nih gay...tp kali ni mmg btol vince mmg gay~

arab: bangge vince hung gay~
Amelia Abdul Rashid: hahaha
Amelia Abdul Rashid: a'ah
Amelia Abdul Rashid: mmg dier gay..puas ati?
Amelia Abdul Rashid: hahaha
Amelia Abdul Rashid: to gay yg ader gf

pengakuan dari sorang die hard fan VINCE~

tapi mmg kenyataan pon org2 yg jambu nih kekadang gay@ mangse gay~

same je...gay gak wkakakakkaka

~17th Ramadhan II~

2005-10-21T15:14:00.000-07:00

ikotkan byk lagi aku nak crite, tp aku malas... so aku pendekkan crite jelah yer

kat nerake nanti ade 120 group, dlm 120 group tu... 117 group tu menjadi penghuni tetap nerake lagi 3 group tuh.... terbahagi kpd empat... 1st golongan yg masuk tros ke syurge 2n golongan yg dapat kitab kat tgn kanan, 3rd yg dapat kitab amalnye kat tgn kiri, 4th yg amalan baik ngan jahat dier dekat2 same~

golongan yg 117 tuh... terdiri dari org2 kapir, DAN UMAT ISLAM YG TAK SEMBAHYANG~

pastuh yg 3 group terakhir tuh...

1st nyer section tuh... pepaham jelah golongan2 yg gile hebat~

2nd nyer tuh org yg dihisab dulu baru masuk

3rd nyer golongan yg kene celup dlm nerake... then pas setel baru masuk syurge

4th nyer golongan yg dapat bantuan Rasulullah s.a.w untuk masuk nerake

so...nilaikanlah diri korang sumer... korang kat bahagian mane yer....

pass abes je tazkirah tuh sambung la balik...smayang traweh...

pass setel je smayang traweh... aku ngan prasaan penoh sodey dan kecewe pg smayang tobat~ nangis la sumer... tp harap2 tobat aku diterime...

aku seda hidop aku slamenih bagaikan binatang ternakan~ sbbtulah surah pertame al-quran surah al-baqarah.... surah lembu, sbab manusie time tuh sumer perangai macam lembu... aku sedey laa... aku buat dose byk gile... stiap pandangan aku mendapat dose...tgk kiri tgk kanan... sume ade... dose ngumpat, dose ngutuk, dose tak menjage smayang, dose tak mengajak membe smayang, dose tgk mende2 tak btol, dose memacam la... aku rase kalo aku buat list dose aku... penoh~

sedeh gile woo...nangis je aku time tuh... manetaknye aku = lembu

lembu yg bodo tu pon tak buat dose macam aku...

haih~ rase kecewe tak terhingge pon takleh watpe sbab mende nih dah lepas...

so mulai arinih... aku nak cube menjadi manusie yg lebey elok dari sblomnye... kalo dulu aku senyap tgk membe aku tak smayang... kali ni aku nak sound skit... kalo dulu aku wat dose tgk mende2 tuh ngan nih... kali nih aku nak stop wat mende2 tuh, kalo dulu aku tak slalu smayang kat masjed, pasni aku akan cube utk smayang walaupon skali~ byk gak list tobat aku nih... jus harap2 aku bejaye~

doakan aku bejaye yoh!!! amin~

so kepade umat islam yg kat luar tuh... korang pnah dgr tak yg sape yg beragame islam tuh... kalo dier islam dier akan masuk syurge gak kan? tp aku nak stresskan something la... sape yg tak smayang tuh mmg konfem...bukan dah konfem tapi mmg dah KONPEM! sekonpem2nye PERMANENT masuk nerake~ (siap highlight tuh)

aku tanak tgk korang kat nerake nanti... kalo korang masuk and kuar takpe gak... tapi yg masuk tak kuar2 tuh.... cam rugi la korang jadik org islam.... baik jadik kapir atleast ko bole buat mende2 yg tak bole dibuat~

so...sape yg rajen tgk blue, curik, zina, bla bla bla...memacam lagi... JGN SESKALI TINGGAL SMAYANG!!!

so tu jelah aku nak cakap kali nih...walaupon prasaan aku tak tenteram....tp atleast aku dah ckp ape yg nak dicakap~

~17th Ramadhan~

2005-10-21T06:19:00.000-07:00

hari ni... hari yg begitu bermakne bagi aku...17 ramadhan....

aku dah dgr dari mcm2 sumber... ckp burok kat blakang aku... ckp tu.. ckp ni... tp aku tak kesahla org nak cakap ape pon... biarpon aku menulis blog nih iaitu coretan hidop aku untuk diri aku... tp nak watcamne kalo org lain nak bace... aku tak kesah sgt sbnanye... biar aku menules blog nih dan dipanggel cheap, poyo, merepek, ckp tak srupe bikin.... tapi itu hak aku... yg baik datang dari Allah S.W.T dan yg buruk itu aku nyer nafsu terhadap mende yg buruk~

sambung crite balik....

17 ramadhan... satu prasaan yg begitu mendalam kene kat aku mase aku tgh borak ngan elle.... bukan aku cinte kat dier... tp... aku seda yg aku perlu bertaubat.... aku terase sedeh.... tp timetuh taleh lah nak nangis...sbab aku dah lame mencari malam yg sesuai utk bertaubat kpd tuhan aku - Allah S.W.T

pas saje aku borak2 ngan elle prasaan utk bertaubat tuh smakin hampir... aku bersyukur kerane tuhan menurunkan hidayah kpd aku... so... pas aku setel ngan elle... cam biase lah... hari aku agak memenatkan la.. jadik plumber, repair tu, repair nih... pg bank setelkan cek yg aku mng dari hitz fm, pastuh bank in duit masuk investment aku...memacam laa... dari smlam aku tak tdo... tp siang tuh jumaat.... aku agak lambat laa pg... bukan agak lambat.. mmg lambat pon... org dah setel satu rakaat aku baru je sampai... menglabit amek air smayang sumer... so... tu jela aktiviti aku di siang hari pon...

mlm pon menjelme... bukak pose pon tak semeriah keluarge2 yg rapat... makan pon aku ngan adek aku je... bukak pose aku ngan semangkuk cereal, skeping pizza, pastuh nasik sepinggan... bunyik je cam meriah.. tp tak semeriah mane pon... pas smayang magrib sumer... aku terpk pasal aku nyer investment yg akan membawe keuntungan kpd aku dan kuarge aku... pening gak aa memikey...tp setel gak akhirnye...

so smayang traweh...time ni la memacam terjadi kat aku.... prasaan kecewe, sedeh dan sayu... menusuk hatiku~ aku smayang traweh agak sedeh la... bukan sbab aku paham ayat2 yg dibace... tp aku kecewe.... ya-Allah ... knape aku begitu jahil... aku smayang traweh dgn prasaan kecewe tuh sampai rakaat ke empat... tertarik2 menahan sebak didade...

bile sampai je rakaat keempat... ttbe je ade cam tazkirah sempoi aa.. memule aku cam nak bla... tp hati aku tebuke utk mendgr... so aku pon layan la...~ aku ingat lagi ape yg ustat tuh cakap... 1 demi 1... so nih aku recallkan utk korang yg takde bersame aku time tazkirah tuh.... walaupon tak sebijik.. tapi isi dier same je~

so ustat tuh bermule dgn mempersoalkan brape percent umat islam dalam msie nih... die ckp 80% pastuh yg pose plak... dengan slambenye dier cakap 60% aku pon tatau aa btol ke tak... tp layan jela... den dier bitau plak percentage umat islam yg smayang... 20% je... so die ckp pasal doa... knape sumer org doa tapi tak dikabulkan... time iraq ngan palestine nak kene kaco.. sumer smayang hajat... satu dunie smayang... tp knape Allah tak dgr... die ckp la reason dier... sbab syarat tak cukop...

pasnie bermulelah ayat2 yg gile tajam... dush satu2 dier tembak aku... die kuarkan dalil... knape umat nabi muhammad s.a.w tak dipanjangkan umur... sdgkan umat2 yg sblomnye sumer gile lame hidop... ade yg 1000 taun lebey... pastu dier bitau satu doa para sahabat time bulan pose....~ berbunyi - ya-allah engkau panjangkan umurku sehingga bulan ramadhan~ knape tak panjang lagi dier cakap... pastuh dier cakap sbab dorang tau time bulan ramadhan macam2 dapat... rahmat,keampunan dan doa2 byk dimakbulkan.... pastuh die ckp lagi satu doa... ya-allah engkau matikanlah aku jika aku akan melakukan dosa berterusan... btol gak ustat tuh... kalo idop lelame tapi buat dose je baik mati je... kalo dah tau anak ko bile besa nanti buat dose bebanyak... baik matikan awal2...

so tu satu dari tembakan dier...

lagi satu plak... yg nih yg gile bapaknye sronok aku kene... sampai dirobek2 kan atie aku tu...
di kuarkan satu ayat... sorry la aku lupe.. tapi dier punyer maksud dier... Allah S.W.T telah berfirman : barangsiapa yg tidak menyembah padaku (sembahyang) maka mereka sama seperti binatang ternakan malah lebih hina~ die cakap... yg ni lah yg paling penting... kalau puase tapi tak smayang... buat ape.. then die ckp lagi.. Allah S.W.T telah berfiman barang siapa yg tidak menyembah padaku... maka merekalah penghuni tetap neraka...

maksud ayat tuh tadi... WALAUPON ORG ISLAM... TP KALO TAK SMAYANG... NERAKA lah jawapannye...

~twisted mixture of past and present~

2005-10-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

so the days are long and the nights are short here in sarawak, everyday i usually sleep, and sleep, and sleep, and pray.... so its jus nothing for me in the month of ramadhan nemore... my dreams of achieving the glorious night of a thousand months, jus faded away.... with my tremendous amount of sin, stupidity and likely careless.... nothing i did was gud for myself~

~a mixture of sweet and bitter~

2005-10-17T09:43:00.000-07:00

fate has made people crash and live, so in my terms, was it a gud sign for me to live on...

sometime i wonder y i always almost get into an xcdent but it turns out good.... y must it be that way? y cant i jus crash and die?

so fate has changed the pavements of my life so that i could live on, but living on is some thing that i had to deal with.... sometimes i jus wished that the plane i ride would jus crash and see if i could survive again or not.... but on second thought my dad was there...so i jus took the feeling away... everyday i felt a cold shiver in my back...mom and i are jus the same, nothing special came out during the months i never saw her... so i guess if i disappear people would jus shed a tear or two and then start laughing again....

i wonder, y times in my life are like...up and down, n then the moment everything goes down, i get my share of misery~... so i could recall all the bad things that happened to me...tdo time bawak kete then langga barrier jalan tapi hidop lagi, rear break moto pecah tapi hidop lagi, moto mati tgh2 highway tapi hidop lagi, bawak moto cam org gile tapi hidop lagi, kalo nak cerite mmg panjang lebar.... tapi watpe nak crite... yg burok baik simpan sengsorang...atleast yg menarik skit tuh aku hidop lagi la~ so aku hidop lagi? big deal...

kekadang aku bersyukur la sebab idop lagi.... spanjang aku idop ni pon... byk gile dose aku wat.... tapi tak penah pon ade ati nak bertobat.... kalo tobat pon... pass brape ari wat balik.... so nak kate ape lagi aku ni mmg hampas~ kekadang aku cam terkilan gak la... knape org2 yg buat lagi byk dose dari aku...slalu nye untung... kekadang terase gak cam nak tumbang dah tiang agame aku... tp syukur aku bole mengucap lagi....

so some people wonder y there a muslim but in reality they arent? maybe aku pon mungkin tegolong gak dlm category tersebut... watpe nak raye kalo pose pon cam tak yakin diterime tuhan.... baik aku jadik kapirun... atleast tayah nak risau2, sbab mmg dah konpem masuk nerake... tp tuhan sayangkan aku...so memandangkan aku still dlm agame islam... so aku rase cam aku nih kat jln yg lurus...

kalo nak ikotkan sumer kejer yg aku buat sumernye iklas... ape taknye mintak repair komputer pon slalunye aku tak cas...mmg bes la org yg slalu rosak tuh.... tp ikotkan aku ni mmg mangkuk hayun a... dah ade sumber nak dapat duit, tapi tamau....so kesimpulannye aku nih mmg hampas~

nak carik duit....tapi tamau potong rambut... pastuh mengharap org kasi bantuan...ape kemanusielah aku nih....ini lah aku, muhammad faiz@mangkuk berayun~ ikotkan aku ade byk lagi kesah idop aku yg serbe pelik dan tak pernah terjawab... tapi this is my blog... tempat aku nak cerite kat aku nyer prasaan knape aku nih mangkuk sgt~

kalo bole tlg le jawab.....tp aku rase cam tayah la...semuenye telah terbukti jelas

tapi aku jus nak bitau satu mende jela dispite all the facts that aku nih mmg sebijik mangkuk ayun

aku bersyukur aku nih still islam....tu je walaupon aku rase macam tak... tapi harap2 la aku diterime kalo aku mati pon...amin

~home sweet home~

2005-10-16T00:27:00.000-07:00

baru je landing pg tadi~ fuh sib baik tade pape...

minggu nih memacam jadik... hampir accident la... makan polystrin aa...tu la ni la... memacam aku nak crite...tp aku malas~

so aku rase aku crite part kat klia sampai umah~

pg tuh aku tdo cam biase...den kol 4 lebey bapak gue kejot aku suro get redy....

so dah setel sumer mende... kitorang pon troskan pejalan ke klia...sambil2 tuh singgah sahur jap! (fuh!! bes siot type gune kebod olskool, bunyi dier "KETAK KETAK"....)

so dari klia tuh tade pape sgt utk diceritekan...

pas sampai klia...aku pon pg le mencari tiket kapai tebang aku...(aku cam gamble gile aa pg klia tade tiket) wkakakka

so...pg le counter MAS~ mintak tiket murah...tp dorang kate dah abes... so bapak aku pg le plak kat AIRASIA nye counter.... ingt dapat la tiket sratos lebey...las2 tiket die 250~ fuyoh cukop utk aku survive 3-4 minggu

dah nak bli, tp ttbe bapak aku short cash... aku pon seluk le walet aku~ den jumpe le 70, still tak cukop!

die nak gune kedit kad dier...tp sistem kedit kad airasia time tuh taleh~

so ape lagi pegi MAS nyer office le :)

tanye2...las2 tiket aku 280~ aku pon ckp kat bapak aku beze 30 inggit je~

las2 bapak aku bli tiket kapai tebang mas~

so dah setel sumer... pg le check in sum,er... dah smayang sumer.... aku pon pg le mencari toilet nak lepas kan hajat yg bes! dgn penuh condomfidennye~ aku masuk le toilet.... ttbe dah masuk tuh aku rase pelik...pesal smacam je...

so aku kuar balik....tgk2 toilet yg aku masuk tuh toilet pompuan!!! fuyoooo.....
sib baik aku tak masuk dlm lagi...karang memacam plak aku jumpe!

pas setel hal kat toilet tuh... aku pon pg le dok kat aku nye gate~

tgk jam, ade satu jam lagi! so aku pon pegi le mencari kedai majalah.... dari ujung gate A sampai ke gate B aku merantau... sume kedai tutop...maklum le pepagi bute!

sambil jln2 tuh aku misscall sumer manusie yg aku ade...awek aku, illy, mia, irwan... bla bla bla... sume tade reply kecuali irwan~

so aku pon main le sms... sambil sms sambil usha! gile bes tadi...ramai awek2 comey...tgh jln ade, tgh baring2 ade, tp takkan aku nak pg wat muke tak malu ttbe borak ngan dorang kot...so aku pon dok le tepi bace paper~

time aku tgh travelling tuh aku lepak dok tgk kapal tebang landing sumer... ttbe ade le sorang omputih ni dtg sblah aku... ngan anak2 kecik dier...

ttbe anak dier tanye memacam.... pesal org keje kat epot le, pesal byk kete le, bla bla bla....aku pon dgr le mak die menipu sambil tgk kapai tebang jln sane sini...

pass dah boring tgk kapal tebang aku pon jln le balik ke gate aku~

sampai kat gate aku~ ade plak mamat srawak nih merepek ngan kapel omputih ni... dah le conquer tempat duduk~ siot tol... aku diri tepi tuh cam tiang je...tp tape lah...ramai gak join the party jadik mat tiang kat tgh2 jln....

kol 7 50 gate aku open~ so aku pon lepak2 jap n later on masuk kapal tebang aku....

dok le situ sampai plane dah take off...

tgh dok rilek2 tuh ttbe kapten kapal tuh bitau nak serve makanan! so dtg le akak stewardess ni...dahle comey~ ttbe dier tanye aku soklan agak bijak bestari la...

ur fasting? mangkuk ayun...bole plak wat lawak bodo 30 ribu kaki atas langit~ so aku pon angguk ngan muke slambe.... tp aku plak ade mamat cine dari australia...~

so die ngap sumer makanan tuh dgn bahagienye~ dah abes tuh die mintak kacang plak... pastuh ttbe promote kat aku, kacang mas plg sedap, peh...aku pon layan la...ttbe dier offer aku chewing gum~ die tau aku pose... so die kasi aku satu pack tuh~ pastuh dgn banggenye die bitau aku die ade byk gile dlm beg dier~

dah abes tu die tanye aku skit tu skit ni...pastuh aku balas la dgn soklan2 aku yg tak seberape....pastuh ttbe dier open table, die wat pameran melbourne plak...die tunjuk gamba2 kat sane sumer....dah abes dier merepek, aku pon dah tatau nak tanye ape...nak borak2 pon bi aku dah karat, so cam pelik skit le bile merepek dlm BI ngan mamat tuh...so aku dok le kat situ diam2

pas sampai kat airport MEOW~ aku gi le kat counter imigration~ jumpe le akak@makcik nih...fuyoh! gile bapaknye putih....cam antu le plak dier letak mekap tuh...cuak gak aku tgk die

dah setel sumer....aku pon tolak le troley yg diisi dgn beg pg ke dreba bapak aku... lame gak le aku tak naik kete besa tuh...huhuhuhu agak bes... so camtu jela crite aku spanjang travelling dari kl ke kuching~

stay tuned for tomoro!

arab and life in the dead city!

~2 days of guiltness~

2005-10-09T11:10:00.000-07:00

done something bad~ and dont wanna talk about it...

tadi gi bukak pose kat masjed putra~ makan agak bes la,

nasi putih + ikan masak asam pedas
air oren
tom yam
tembikai
keuh gulung

tu le dier menu dier utk buke pose yg ke-6

pas makan heavy2 tuh aku gi la merempit ke MIAT~

sampai sane continue smayang isya' + traweh

tgh2 smayang, nampak la plak membe lame aku~ hehehe

si kote@dikenali sbgai anuar kusyairi~ hehehe skuad aku!

pas smayang aku pon pg le menelepon abg aku~ so settle le hal kete!

pas dapat kete aku pon pg le jumpe membe aku yg tadi tuh

kitorang borak agak lame la~

then aku balik...

bertuah nye abg, tinggal minyak bebetol nak abes~

so tepakse le aku bawak slow2...TP AKU BAWAK LAJU GAK!! hehehehehe

sampai stesen minyak siber...

dah park lawa2...aku pon hulo la 60 inggit tuk minyak~

den akak counter tu cakap~ komputer rosak...bole plak camtu...

tunggu le aku cam org gile dlm stesen minyak tuh..... dah lame aku tunggu... aku pon brambus ke petronas putrajaya.... sib baik tak stop tgh jalan...aku dgn fone tade line, bawak kete sengsorang dlm gelap...pergh kalo breakdown tadi...tolak kete sengsorang la aku~

sampai je petronas putra...aku pg la kasi duit kat counter~ ckp kat akak tuh! 60 pam???? aku blur plak so aku cakap kembare... yg akak tu plak bole blank... dah le satu je kembare kat situ...die dok merepek pam 9 pam 9...

haiya...pening pale..

sampai je hostel aku calling mak aku! yay! dapat reinforcements duit! gile bes...

tu jela aku nak crite wat mase nih...

oleh kerane aku malas nak kaler2...tade le warne warni...

bye sumer n slamat ari ghaye~

~who am i?~

2005-10-07T04:57:00.000-07:00

im lost~ and im starting to hate it.... nothin had ever satisfied my crave for satisfaction in life~

oh darn it.... (praying for a better life)

i guess im not in the mood to blabber~

im dead outta money, my life's goin crazy, and lastly im stuck here with nothing todo and in total disappointment~

no smileys for my days now~

dissatifactional life~

2005-10-06T23:28:00.000-07:00

it was true that things learned and cleared out will eventually dissappear, but it disappeared too soon~

my cg exam was kinda lousy, everything i covered came out, but....mesti ade nye BUT~ siot tol... many of my answers were kinda sangkut2...haiyah...

it was true when the angel jibril asked ALLAH S.W.T about the secrets of doa'...

god likes to fulfil the doa's of the lost and hopeless more because these people are usually forgetful,

but to the people who aren't...there were three conditions, either to be fulfilled at the time u asked, or later on where it is at the right time~, and lastly the sins diampunkan~

i wonder, there rules of ALLAH s.w.t was always correct in everything....yet i wonder wat type of person i am...

tadi mase kutbah jumaat, memacam mende jadik~

aku blaja memacam dari kutbah tuh... sbgai manusie yg kurang mengamalkan pelbagai mende2 amal ibadah nih aku agak terase lah...

RUGI~

how can i be so stupid to not realize it~ i guess people are stupid anyway...they forget everything and start enjoying so much until the last breath they have...

the benifits of ramadhan is so great....mane taknye kalo bace ayat Quran selai je dah dikire sebagai katam~ pastuh kalo smayang biase pahale dikire sbgai 70x, slawat pulak diringankan beban di hari kiamat~, ikat tali silaturrahim pon dapat gak...haiya...

kenapelah aku bute sgt...

tp aku pelik la...knape ade segelintir manusie tak seda langsung~ aku benci sumer manusie tuh...

tatau la sape pon...tp knape nak amalkan puase je? knape? malu ke? hine sgt ke sujud kat lantai tuh sampai tanak? kalo dah terase hine sgt letak dahi kat lantai tuh baik jadik murtad~ covert tros.... atleast tade lah malu org2 yg beragame islam

pastuh bole plak ikot trend, smayang time bulan pose je...nak kaver malunye pasal...pakai tudung pon time bulan pose je...apelah~ aku pon ngaku aku bukak aurat, aku kekadang tinggal smayang gak, aku buat dose gak, tp tadelah hipokrit gile, kalo nak ubah tuh ubah lah tros, nak tunggu mati baru nak ubah?

kalo stakat nak tunggu napas terakhir baru nak ubah tuh wallahualam la...kalo bejaye aku respect gile la~ tp tak penah dorang sedeh ke? utk mase akan dtg, boleh ke dorang bangge utk bercerite kat the future generation?

aku nak buat satu permohonan la...ni bulan puase...bulan yg suci dan mulie~ tlg lah RESPECT skit bulan nih...pakai la sopan2 skit, nak bukak sane bukak sini pon....pg la dlm toilet tuh n bogel lah~ tade org nak kesah pon... setan pon tade nak tgk~ layan la diri sniri dlm toilet tuh~ jgn terhanyut sampai batal pose tuh sudah....

aku malu lah sbgai seorang muslim~ kalo nak maki2 pon tak sampai ati sbab sumer dah tue, otak dah ade, pk memacam pon tak gune gak...

nak sound lelebeh pon takleh gak sbab aku pon bukannye btol sgt....aku bukan orang2 yg dikatekan hebat dlm agame...ikotkan aku hanyelah insan@hambe Allah s.w.t yg lemah dan tidak berkemampuan....

bulan puase nih aku nak stop~ stop ngumpat sumer org, stop tgk mende2 yg tak halal, dan stop mendenga dan bercakap ayat2 yg tak halal gak~

so kpd sesiape yg bace blog aku nih, kalo nak terase pon, tu teraselah sedalah bahawe ko nih manusie yg akan dibakar dlm api nerake nanti...aku pon same gak~

mampus a nak kate ape pon....ni aku nyer blog~ nak marah2 baik balik umah la

so this is my life...full of unanswered questions

the reality awaits you....

the greatly praised and successful,

muhammad faiz~

EpY BirThdAy MOM~

2005-10-06T17:08:00.000-07:00

i woke up, and starred at my fone...then saw something written on the screen...
it was my mums birthday! i jus knew that its today...
evenso i never knew when my parents birthday were, but it doesnt mean that i dont like em~

i know im not one of the best in the line of the son's u had, but im still unclear bout everything i see~

but i promise u that im going to succeed even so i fall for the 7th time~

so what could i do more other than pray for my mums gud health and brighter future~

i love you mom~

im going for my cg exam now, hope everythin i read and explained yesterday and the days before actually stuck in my head~

o well....when humans get into trouble they remember their god, but when their busy laughin' their heads off, they actually dont~

o ALLAH, plz help me in my exam~ amin

sahur at the landfill zone~

2005-10-06T12:48:00.000-07:00

So after smayang study skit merepek skit~

byk gak aa kitorang merepek~ malas le plak aku nak crite, dari gay, homo, lesbo, sumer ader~

so...fastpowad skit crite~

pg laaa...kedai mamak kat serdang~ tp yg suprise skit mlm nih~ tak bau sampah wooo~!

huahuahua

so aku makan ngan bahagienye~

duit dah abes...so ape lagi balik jela~

so balik pon kontinue aa tdo~

head banggin' divinity~

2005-10-06T06:38:00.000-07:00

ok so i got my wish which was goin to putra mosque and settling some scores with ALLAH S.W.T~

but as usual, when people eat too much they tend to get dizzy and later on doze off in dreamland~

the ramadhan menu at putra mosque was GREAT~ GREAT I TELL YA~ it was worth my buck puttin some oil in my motonye gas tank~

i took :
3 dates~
1 kueh lapis..
and for the grand finalle~
mr chicken and beef covered in soy sauce and fashioned with a mountain of bryani rice~
not to mention a little crackers which the locals usually called papedom~

i was kinda into the eating part...i wished i could go up to the counter and take 3 more plates~ but as usual people go to the mosque bukan utk makan! but to serve god...so AGAK2 LA~

Later on to my surprise~ my heart finally opened to read the GLORIOUS AL-QURAN, where i usually kept as perhiasan in my room,
believe it or not i can bet u guys thousands that most people keep the book as decorations in their room....

so i finally got my wish for the month which was to read the book~ yay!

but i got up till page 9 only then dah nak azan isya'~

after azan jer...FUYOO~! tros tegolek i tell ya...

my mind was spinning like hell...and i didnt even hear anything...seda2 org dah bgn utk smayang sunat~

so...since u guys get the picture...i was practically head banggin my way all through the tarawih prayers~ but...i didnt sleep la...kalo tdo dah lame batal, i was jus dizzy je~

so at the 8th rakaah, i thought of giving up coz crashing the waves wasnt a good idea, so i jus did 8~

so ape lagi balik merempit la~

but it was really surprising la.... throughout my years in putrajaya...

this ramadhan was the greatest...krete bersusun beb!

macam smayang jumaat tp trawih je!

so...lemme guess, rakyat malaysia baru sedar ke? hehehehe

or maybe they were having the same thoughts...which was...MAKAN FREE~ HAYAHAHHAAH

ok lah merepek byk2 pon bukan baik utk kesihatan....

i guess this is my life journal now...

sunshine no more~

2005-10-06T01:39:00.000-07:00

pesal aku sronok sgt merepek kat sini aku pon tatau...

pg tadi setau aku tgh carik jln utk mengUPkan moto aku tuh...semput sgt loh...nak race pon tak larat...bukan aku nak race, tp kekadang rase cam nak selit menyelit tgh2 highway pon cam tak bes

pas kecewe tak jumpe, aku rase nanti aku nak mengkaji ilmu rempit ni la...cam bes la plak~ tp aku pelik la naper ramai sgt org benci warge tue rempit~ kah kah kah....

mmg sedey kekadang yg tak besalah pon kener gak, tp nak wat camne, diri sniri pon tak btol nak marah2 org lain pon tak jalan gak...

so pas penat mengkaji ilmu motosikal, aku cube le buang sumer mp3 aku yg bersepah~

so aku pon download le program spesel utk carik mp3 yg diclonekan~

tgh2 buat projek buang mp3 ttbe shimey ym aku, ckp komp dier rosak...so aku pon amek la kom dier tuh

tgk2 tade problem pon...(hai shimey...hape la masalah ko)

tp tape~

dah setel sumer mende aku pon baring lah....sedo2 dah kol 3-50 ptg n mate hari dah tade, ingt dah nak dekat magrib~ tp slamat aku bgn sblom asar.... somenglabah2 babi aku bgn nak gi amek air smayang....zohor tak smayang lagi woo...

ape gunenye kalo puase tp tak smayang....aku bukan jenis2 yg malu kat org tp tak kat tuhan...

itu jelah kisah crite aku....

hish cam bes la plak merepek tak tentu hale kat sini....

2nd of ramadhan~ morning

2005-10-05T16:51:00.000-07:00

still unable to sleep~ so merepek kat sini....haih bosan tol...

i miss the times when i was a game freak..never letting go of any game i touched....ritenow im like so so so blur~~

some people like me, and some hate~ i dunno whats wrong with me...or is it them~ but i dont care a dam hell bout anything....

so its the 2nd of ramadhan and im jus sittin on the chair staring at the monitor, haiya...when will i ever learn to pick up the Holy Quran~ guess my devine will of reading it was never there when i want it to be....

i got so many things to blabber about, but i jus dunno where to start~

maybe i need some sleep, nite peeps~ zzz....

bermulenyer al-kisah hidup encik faiz~

2005-10-05T16:33:00.000-07:00

holla~ baru nak berjinak dgn blog...tah ape bende blog ni aku pon tatau...tp nampak cam bes la plak merepek2...